Welcome 2026!

Happy New Year!

Welcome 2026!

What a year 2025 was for me. Technically January 2025 made only 5 months of grieving my mom's passing so at the start of last year I really just had the goal to try living my life as intentionally and fully as possible as my mom constantly tried to encourage me to do and also what she tried to do.

My mom had been in corporate America when I was growing up and all I knew/thought was she was a business woman! lol When I was a sophomore/junior in high school I came to understand she was a recruiter and what that entailed. One time she showed me how to do a Boolean string search and had me sourcing for her for a little bit. She even offered to pay me once for "learning" AKA helping her do part of her job lol. But also she positioned it as if one day I'd be able to be a recruiter as well. Obviously she was right but I had no interest because I KNEW I was going to be a pediatric psychiatrist at that time. She eventually had her own recruiting RPO firm and then after the recession or whatever that was in 2012 that had America in a tizzy (housing market crash maybe?).. Google is indeed free but my point isn't about that fully so I'm not looking it up lol. Anyway, she had been laid off and then we went through losing our home of about 2 years in a foreclosure. After that, my mom never really had a full time, long lasting position ever again. As time passed and we got to 2020 she was adamant about living her life freely, and unrestrained from corporate America even if it came with hardship, as it obviously did. She actually was quite put up and well cared for by my dad (who she was not still romantically linked to).

I give that background because January 2025 I had hit a road block where I was

1. Grieving

2. Getting paid less than before and now behind on rent to the point eviction court was being scheduled.

3. Experiencing burnout due to this already full time, salaried, remote job at Prolink coming up with ways to have us working over weekends as well for POTENTIAL extra money.

4. Knowing I'd be turning 32 and felt like I hadn't done nearly close to anything I desired or planned.

It occurred to me months later this must have been how my mom felt.. Although, her feelings caused her to not even try to work at all. If I didn't work I'd literally be ON THE STREETS! lol So that was not an option or even the desire for me honestly. I wanted to figure out how to get involved with tv/film locally. How to create and get businesses and side hustles going so I could be my own boss or just have something where I was in control more. I was exhausted of everyone, and these systems having so much control over me. I was already grieving but now I was also depressed due to feeling like I hadn't achieved anything. I also want to note... Unfortunately (fortunately too i guess), me and my sister come from a very small family and we are clearly the ones to break the generational curses of not having anything, having stability issues or having to do so much just to survive... so to answer the annoying but semi-understandable assumption and questions. No I don't have somewhere or someone I could stay with to save money, no I do not have anyone who could loan me money or assistance. lol

By March 2025 Prolink had not only lowered our pay but had now demanded we go hybrid by end of March if you lived 50 fucking miles or less from an office. So that means if you lived 50 miles away you would be driving 100 miles (to work then to home) through Dallas madness (likely over an hour and a half), 3 days a week, for the same, new, lower pay. Psychopaths. Then I started recognizing how much me and my friend were experiencing racism in these various ways and i was fed up and sure i needed to make a transition. At the suggestion of my manager; because grief was effecting me most as far as she cared to understand, I decided to take a medical leave. It was approved and I then was blessed with the random opportunity to begin waitressing at a close friends family's restaurant.

This is clearly opposite in many ways of the corporate world I had been in. I was at that restaurant from April - August. During my time there I had been able to make enough to start catching up on all the bills I was behind in. I was averaging about $1100 a week from working 3-4 nights. A total of 25-30 hours a week. This was such a blessing especially because as of June 2025 I no longer had a car so I was spending $400+ a week to rent Turos to get to work. I became one of the best and highest paid servers there! Just as I was getting to the weeks I could focus on paying for a car (so I could lay off of spending so much a week) I was fired. To make matters worse, it wasn't for anything professionally based. The manager at the restaurant had the hugest problem with me! I think it stemmed from one time I had to tell her I was 32 and to watch her tone. lmao I said it nicely though, I think. She was also in her 30s and instead of communicating that she didn't mean to approach me a certain negative way she actually honed in on the fact that typically "people didn't like her attitude or how she talked to people" and continued bullying me. Asking me to do tedious things when closing, making sure i didn't get certain parties over a certain size etc. Also, who is proud to be a bitch who is unqualified to manage and cant communicate effectively enough to even be liked or pretend they are qualified?! Weirdo. Also she went by a made up name.. Sloane Gold. lmao like if you don't get this golden girls ass name out of here... Her real name is Savina George, I mean Phillips. lol such a mean girl, I align her with the infamous Regina George. But anyway she ended up saying I was at the root of a rumor that her and my friends uncle (the owner) were having an affair. After letting them know i didn't say it but also letting him know i didn't fuck with her management style or lack of skill and tact... he felt that was still grounds to be let go. So two days after the anniversary of my moms death I was fired. Then because the doctor that got my leave approved with Prolink became unresponsive (due to his mother dying) I was unable to extend my leave any further with them, and then I was let go from there two days after the firing from the restaurant. So right at the end of August 2025 and beginning of September 2025 I was catapulted into the ultimate struggle! I couldn't pay rent, nor afford a car to get around in, afford food, my bills, nothing.

On the other end of life, between that time of May 2025 - July 2025 I had been an extra in 3 episodes of Paramount+ hit number one show, Landman! I ended up deciding to file for bankruptcy (October 2025) which is basically starting my 2026 debt free (overall). I also had filed for unemployment (August 2025) but have yet to see a dime because first I was denied because the evil ass Prolink said I quit. I appealed that, then it was determined i was fired.. but wait because of REFUSAL to get a doctors approval for my leave.. lol so still haven't gotten a dime and had to appeal that as well and as of today Jan 1st 2026 that is still being reviewed. I have been able to use my grandmothers car since October 2025 since she doesn't need to go anywhere and when she does I am able to take her to her appointments etc. October I also got a job at a country club working front desk, part time. I also, also began bartending with a mobile bartending and serving service that seldomly has events for me to work. So from October 2025 - December 2025 I have been trying to hustle my ass off but its been so hard! The bartending gigs average about $125 per event sometimes its around $175 and we get tips but that isn't guaranteed and we also have to split tips between all of the bartenders so the most collectively I've made was a little over $200. The events have happened about 2-3 times a month so I'm typically able to use that money for gas, my phone, my light bill, and the internet.

With that being said I haven't been able to pay rent ($2000) since September so i am now $10000 in debt with my apartments. We had eviction court scheduled but filing for bankruptcy protected me for about a month through November. December having so many holidays closures have also benefitted me, but now that we are in January I have to see what their plan will be. The country club pays me a measly $18/hr and I average 15-20 hours a week so that's about $375 ish a week. By the time I get paid i have to pay sometimes those same bills because the events weren't enough or their weren't any, then with whatever's left is for food and gas to where I get paid and typically have about $200 left over to try to last me two weeks until I'm paid again. lol Then at the end of December I just got hired as a server at a spot named Bar Louie and technically i am still in training there but they also seem to be bit slow paced and newly bought out so they are still adjusting which is annoying for me lol The last week of December and first week of January I was basically working at the country club in the morning, restaurant training at night, and on NYE and later on Jan 2nd I bartended at a wedding so alot of movement and working and waiting on even just that little bit of money. lol

So basically 2025 really was the beginning of uprooting, making me remember how to be outside, how to communicate and lead in spaces... It brought me alot of fear and stress but also courage and new knowledge just as I am preparing to launch a business, and an event to do so. I'm grateful for it all even if it has sucked and left me feeling as vulnerable as it has.. I KNOW it was all for something and I'm excited for all of the good and amazing things to come in 2026 that I have clearly made room for in 2025. lol

Happy New Year you Filthy Animals!

XoXo- Tymbriá