It Is Mine!

What would you manifest if it felt as simple as saying it is so?

I have been pondering this question since the year has began honestly. I've had this extreme conflicting energy of being oh-so ready for my marvelous year, but feeling the weight of all of the unresolved from 2025. I've come to understand that a requirement for manifestation is blind belief or faith and ESPECIALLY trust!

Do I trust myself and/or the universe to provide me with my wildest and most amazing dreams? I am finding that although I "do"...or at least think I do in most ways... there is still some doubt. This stems from the trauma from soooo much innocently and fully trusting and then seeming to have the rug pulled from underneath me as soon as I could recognize good things were happening. Or in some cases while the good is happening, an unrelated adjustment or roadblock would begin to happen at the same time. In the past, it just always felt like I didn't get enough time to be aware of, and at peace while holding on to my blessing. That small inkling of doubt actually plays a much larger role in everything. I've come to understand, that having doubt and feeding it.. would mean I am now standing in my own way because I am both putting out energy that conflicts with my desires, and not fully or blindly believing things are possible for me, with ease, and without caveats.

I think it is always important to acknowledge our blockages, rather mental or physical to get them out of the way or heal them, ESPECIALLY before taking on a new element of our journeys. Or at least that's how I try my best to maneuver because nothing feels as bad (to me) than feeling or recognizing the elevation wanting to take place and there being that nagging energy letting you know "not yet". In my case, a lot of those "not yet" (s) were very clearly due to something blocking that moment.

What do I mean by blockages? I will give an example related to my acting career for context. When I lived in Los Angeles, I did audition... semi often, and I was even booked a few times! Now obviously, there are the things I did that I mention on my resume and will talk about if someone asks (an actors favorite question -_-) " Where can I see you on tv?!". But what I don't mention often is there are at least a dozen things I auditioned for and actually got cast in (mostly student films) that I didn't do. And even at least a whole other dozen auditions I got and didn't go to or film myself doing. For the actors out there... I am NOT a fan of self tapes. I love cold reads! So in some instances I just couldn't make it make sense to basically film a scene, awkwardly (cause why do you assume I have someone to read with me!) , have to edit and send in for CONSIDERATION. I don't have that time lol. Sometimes it was absolutely just me being insecure about something, my teeth/slight lisp...my weight... how i walk.. the annoying twang of my voice.. I'd always find something, and stand in my own way. Block myself. Now since being back home in Dallas, now going on 6 years.. I have found myself in new ways and learned to love those aspects as well... even the things I'd like to change.. I have found ways to love. Within a year I did background work 3 times (I know y'all know, but I'm going to keep tooting my own horn on that one lol) for the number one series on a streaming service.

So back to my original question.. "What would you manifest if it felt as simple as saying it is so?"..

First off.. I think manifesting anything really is as simple as saying it is so, but I think it's ALSO as simple (and kind of difficult sometimes) as believing and trusting so.

For me, if I could manifest ANYTHING right now..

1. A car, I want a Nissan Rogue so bad lol.

2. Saving my home with money to spare OR moving into my first house with money to spare! (i'm open lol)

3.Get cast in a huge commercial that pays well over $2,000

4.Win Grant that will fund my startup and release party for Functionalitea!

5.Secure consistent large incoming funds un-attached to having to overwork for it lol
EASE BABY EASEEEEE!

6.Maybe just mayybe some love in my life.

I wanted to write this post and put my current grandest desires into the world. I am choosing to believe not only that I deserve my desires but that they are mine and achievable simply because I am powerful enough to say so.

I hope as you read this you have thought about your current dreams/goals, how you can try to get out of your own way (if you are your biggest hurdle often, like me), and how you can achieve them with just starting through belief!

Let's get everything we came for!

XoXo - Tymbria